I want to unlearn.
I want to read the lines, not between them.
I want to unmaster.
I want to skim across the surface, not swim beneath.

i think i am forgetting myself.
i think i am getting lost in the fog.

I want to be able to take things on surface value.
I want to unanalyse.
I want to fold up, not unfurl.

I want to unrealise.
I want to unsquint.

I want the lines to blur.
I want the images to fade away.

i want more time.
i want to get things done, instead of doing them.
i need more time in a single day.

I want to stop.
I want to unhurt people.

i'm tired.
and i wish my tiredness
weren't a catharsis for
this utterly maudlin
scrap of coding
i try to
label as

writing.

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